Friday, November 09, 2007


I'll take a break from actually talking about my emotions and thoughts of late, although overall they are good. I had a friend send me a sermon her husband preached where he talked about the parable about the unjust judge and told us to "keep crying out." He said, "And when God seems distant, deaf, and silent, when our prayers are not answered with the swiftness and response that we desire, there is really nothing I can say to make things better. Instead, it is what God says to us. In the silence, while we wait for the justice we think needs to be served, we hear God calling to us, promising to us that he is not like a father who tries to sleep through his child's crying, or like an unjust judge that ignores the needs of others. We hear God calling to us, "Keep crying outto me! I hear you, I feel your pain, and I cry with you! Keep crying out to me, I hear you, and I am with you always! Keep crying out to me, you are my child, I hear you, and I love you!" How my heart needs that reminder (thank you Adam & Karen)!

So, for the time being we are visiting our families in North Carolina! We have not been able to visit them since July 4th weekend. Little Shiona is supposedly talking a lot now, so I cannot wait to hear that! Katrina is all excited about the girls doing a "tea party" with her, where she gets to wear a "pretty dress." I get to see Carter's new 'Stang, get to hear all about Suzanne's classes this semester, and Mary's final days working at Lancome... I could say something about everyone, but that'll just have to hold until later. Just getting to visit my family, Jonthan's family, and see friends at church will be sweet indeed.

I am, however, so sad to be away from Georgia this week, because my best friend there is probably having her baby this week! She is due the 18th, but it's her 3rd so she may go a bit early. I have been doing stuff with her multiple times a week to squeeze in as much time as possible. On Thursday we packed the baby's going home bag and picked out the cutest outfits (it's a girl!). So... it's sad, yet her mom and sister will be in town anyway, so my help won't be needed, but the fact that the baby will be a week old before I see her possibly is sad! Kristy has been so kind, the day after the miscarriage she offered to come by with Starbucks, and I really needed to not be alone. I acepted, and she brought the most thoughtful presents and stayed for as long as I needed her and has cried with me many times (who will do that for someone else's baby? she will). She has listenend to me many hours, prayed with me, and offered so much empathy and wise advice. She is such a wise, Godly woman, and one of the truest friends I have had. And she is the Life Group leader's wife. Isn't is amazing how God has lead us again and again into such real relationships with our Life Groups at all three churches? No coincidence. I love our church the more we are there, and our Life Group is really solidifying too (we haven't been meeing that long).

I would love to do some photo entries soon, but I left my cable at home. However, if I feel like it I'll update while I'm in NC. I hope people still read this, I know I'm getting ~30 hits a day on each website, but my comment level is horribly low. :/ So hopefully the more upbeat entry will prompt some of you silent people into saying hello.


The Nolls said...

Hi Denise!
Your last paragraph about comments prompted me to write a comment :) So here I am. I have been reading your blog for about a month and a half now, though I don't remember how I found it the first time. I have been so appreciative of your thoughts and ability to be real with your emotions and struggles, but still proclaim the goodness of the Lord. I haven't experienced a miscarriage but I have had several friends go through them in the last year and my heart has ached. I have been blessed to see the Lord's work in you, even in a very difficult time, through your honesty and vulnerability. Thank you for that.
May God continue to bless and uphold you. I hope you have a wonderful time with your families... may it be very refreshing to your soul!

Rebecca Swan said...

Keeping up with your blog and praying for you- sorry I haven't commented, but I have been following your journey through all of this. I love you!

Herb of Grace said...

Darn, we really need to get co-ordinated about our visits home so we can see you guys!! We'll be there around Christmas, so once again we're missing you by only a few weeks.

Carolyn said...

Wish I could see you this week but I didn't feel up to dragging Wesley and Savannah to a new enviroment. Have a great trip!

Jeanie said...

Denise- I hope you have a wonderful visit with your families. What will you be doing for the holidays??

Ellen said...

Hi! I found your blog from Rachel's. I so know where you are. It took us three years to get our baby boy, and I had a devastating miscarriage after about 6 months of treatment with a clinic. I didn't know how I was going to go on. We were moving to DC in July for my husband to take a horribly stressful job, and I thought our treatments were over. We got pregnant on our last round of Folli. I moved at 6 weeks pregnant. If you want to see how I was handling it back then, go to the archives from early 2006 on my blog, I'll be praying for you. I remember the devastation of that miscarriage so well, especially after all it took to get that baby. It was a triple blow. If you want to know more of the details on that, just comment on my blog, and I'd be happy to share. Big hugs.

meghann said...

forgive me friend for not calling you more here lately. you all have been in my prayers though. i called today..i need to ask you a HUGE favor!(peak your interest yet?)