Sunday, January 27, 2008

He's Gone

Yep, my best friend & beloved one is gone now. Left Saturday. Those last 24 hours before he left were really tough on us both. But we made the very most of every day this last week, with wonderful things like buying a live lobster at the grocery to cook at home, enjoying wine & looooong conversations, many long hikes/walks in our woods, and special nights out to dinner/movie. We had a final Starbucks date on Friday and couldn't let go of each other. Such perfect times. We know the reason this separation is so very difficult. It's not because we need each other for practical things (like cooking or finances or fixing the car). It's because we are Soul Mates in the truest sense; we're best friends, lovers, and we share every part of our lives together. We miss the sharing, each other's company, input. As painful as separation is, we can't help but be reminded the only reason it's so hard is because our relationship is sooo good. While the last few months of our lives together have been anything but blissful in terms of outward struggles we can't control, it helps be reminded what gift of a marriage we have!
So for now, it's Day #4 of ~70 days. Here's two pics we got about an hour before he left. I love his DCUs with his new 1LT rank (yes, he was promoted a few weeks ago)!

4 comments:

Susi said...

Denise, I know this will be tough on you....it takes a while for it to start feeling easy, I'll be honest. But, it DOES get easier. Don't try to be too "strong", just be practical, let yourself cry, and thank God each morning that another night has gone by that you will never have to experience again without him. Small blessings, but they count. Staying busy also helps....and say Yes when people invite you over! :) That's also a big help, even if you really don't feel like it. "This, too, shall pass" and your reunion in a few months will be SO unspeakably sweet! You are in my prayers daily, dear friend. :)

Carolyn said...

I've been thinking about you and wondering how you are doing with Jonathan leaving. An "online" friend of mine just sent her husband off for a YEAR overseas. (http://heart-and-home.net/2008/01/hanging-in-there.html) I can't even imagine it. I respect the sacrifice you both are making so much.

Jeanie said...

Praying for you!!

Claude said...

Hi ya Denise! Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you and Jonathan this morning. You both are so amazing and have a beautiful marriage. It's sooo sweet to see how in love you are :-)

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