Tuesday, August 26, 2008

My Sweet Husband is Gone....

I haven't much emotional energy left to post much... Except to say that my precious Jonathan is gone, gone, gone. We parted today at 2:30 after having probably the most excrutiating 24 hour countdown to that. We both think somehow this deployment is so much worse in how we handled the actual leaving process. It feels SO much harder. Not even sure why, only perhaps now we know what we've got ahead of us whereas back in January we did not. The Lord was present when we cried out, His words in the Psalms ministered like no other to us, but we are so broken at being separated. When you think of us, please pray, this is so very difficult to go through. We keep reminding ourselves to just take one day at a time.

We had some of the most precious moments leading up to this separation. I can't even being to describe them, as they defy even words to adequately express them. And we know this is so hard only because we have found in each other the very depths of Love and Oneness that many others only dream about. The heights of joy go hand in hand with the depths of pain at times.

So for my benefit, here are a few of our precious last times together. Here is also my 18 week belly shot. I'll include a head shot at 19 weeks. I look a lot bigger with maternity-type clothes on than the shot I took below.

Picnic last week....

The last dinner out

Before we leave the house - all too reminiscient of January...

18 wk belly

5 comments:

The Cranberry Paper said...

Oh..my...goodness....do you realize I looked like that at 3 months preg?? lucky you...although she was 9 pounds in the end..maybe that had something to do with it! You look lovely!! Keep taking good care of your self and I'll be praying for you!

Herb of Grace said...

oh geez... you gotta watch your post titles... I nearly had a heart attack when I saw "Gone" on my blog reader.

*whew*

*swallows heart back down to normal spot in chest...*

I'm sorry to hear that you are missing J so much :( I"ll be praying for you, too!

Further Up & Further In said...

*sniffs* It doesn't seem fair we can't be miserable together. :( I'm so bummed you're not coming. That is why this deployment's so much harder than the last. It's because you're not coming to see ME! :( Seriously, tho, I looked at tickets to ATL, and they're upwards of $500. Even from Sato. *sniff*

Carolyn said...

I'll be praying for you, friend!

Lindsay said...

Oh Denise, I will be praying. That's so sad you guys have to say good bye. Yet I am so grateful for what Jonathan does. So thank you for your sacrifices.

And you look adorable:))